So, I took a little break from the world for a week or so...I basically "unplugged": I was in a lot of pain, adjusting to my new sleep pattern (and when I say 'new', I mean worse.) I also feel as if my condition is getting worse -no, I'm not a doctor...but I know my body and I feel the difference. I also had some personal things going on, as we all do. I just had to spend time with myself to regroup.
Being away from everything was almost vital, I didn't realize how stressed out I was!!! I try to be easy-going, drama free, and positive, but I had to acknowledge that madness so I could deal with it. I can't say that everything is fixed, but I'm working on it.
This is what I had to refocus on:
My life isn't really about me at all: it's about what I can do to help my son, my family, friends and others I meet along the way be better people with the hope I can gain knowledge and understanding from people around me. Michael Jackson said it best in his song "Heal the World", 'Be God's glow', basically saying we should be a reflection of God's love.
This poem is a summary of my thoughts this week:
I am a fighter, thinking I'd lost my way... I lost my focus, I was lead astray.
In a lonely place, I looked over my life, Taking a long, hard look in the mirror: I saw the misery and strife I was looking at a girl, reflecting on a childhood lost... all the hurt and pain. Knowing that God has kept me here for a purpose... I have so much to gain.
Taking a look at the woman I now, I see the potential within I am a fighter, I'm destined to win! Taking in all the test over years, I have to take the lessons and remove the tears.
I am a fighter, I thought I lost my way. Getting back on track won't be easy, With guidance and love, victory isn't far away.
I hope everyone has been well. I hope to be back to full speed soon!