Tuesday, September 6, 2011


So, I took a little break from the world for a week or so...I basically "unplugged": I was in a lot of pain, adjusting to my new sleep pattern (and when I say 'new', I mean worse.) I also feel as if my condition is getting worse -no, I'm not a doctor...but I know my body and I feel the difference. I also had some personal things going on, as we all do. I just had to spend time with myself to regroup.

Being away from everything was almost vital, I didn't realize how stressed out I was!!! I try to be easy-going, drama free, and  positive, but I had to acknowledge that madness so I could deal with it. I can't say that everything is fixed, but I'm working on it.

This is what I had to refocus on:

My life isn't really about me at all: it's about what I can do to help my son, my family, friends and others I meet along the way be better people with the hope I can gain knowledge and understanding from people around me. Michael Jackson said it best in his song "Heal the World", 'Be God's glow', basically saying we should be a reflection of God's love.

This poem is a summary of my thoughts this week:

I am a fighter, thinking I'd lost my way...
I lost my focus, I was lead astray.

In a lonely place, I looked over my life,
Taking a long, hard look in the mirror: I saw the misery and strife
I was looking at a girl, reflecting on a childhood lost...
all the hurt and pain.
Knowing that God has kept me here for a purpose...
I have so much to gain.

Taking a look at the woman I now, I see the potential within
I am a fighter, I'm destined to win!
Taking in all the test over  years,
I have to take the lessons and remove the tears.

I am a fighter, I thought I lost my way.
Getting back on track won't be easy,
With guidance and love, victory isn't far away.

I hope everyone has been well. I hope to be back to full speed soon!

Take care,


  1. Sometimes a break can be like a calming breeze. I hope your short reprieve is just what you needed to gather up your strength for the next part of the journey.

  2. It was great, Deb! I'm still taking it easy, but I knew some people where worried about me...
    I hope all is well with you.